You Didn't Think I Quit Did You?

No, seriously.......? No faith....shame on you! The diet goes on, slowly but surely and I have lost 15 lbs. I would like to say that I am losing my weight slowly, because of course as all diet junkies know, slow weight loss is ideal....BUT the truth is after 50, everything seems to slow down (everything except time that is).

The Cheesecake Moment

So time goes on...and so does the diet. So far so good, only a glitch or two, (I guess you can call cheesecake a glitch when you are on a diet...?). Everything is relative when dieting, especially after 50. There is something about dieting after 50 that feels different...not like one has more control or anything but like it is so much more relaxed. There is no pressure. I guess it is because that "over the hill" moment is eminent...what could be worse...so what if you eat a piece of cheesecake. But back to the laid-back/relaxed part, realizing that you will never look 22 again is quite a relief. Too bad it takes reaching the big 5-0 to have such a revelation. So many wasted years trying to achieve something that for 90% of the population wasn't a possibility in the 1st place. Suddenly realizing that looking 10 or 15 years younger means looking like you did when you were 35 or 40.....well I was overweight then too!? So that takes the pressure off because this time I can look better than I did 10-15 years ago just by being successful on my diet.....so the good news is.... I'm still motivated, (AND 7 lbs. lighter after the cheesecake last week).

1st Few Days

Well it has been a few days, I'm still dieting and trying to act like it's no big deal. I made cookies for my family today...is that a test for myself? I had one and feel pretty good about that.


As I "diet" I am finding I have been more focused. I suddenly have this need to get all aspects of my life in order...is that what dieting does to you? I think its because your nutrition has suddenly become organized in a manner of speaking, so you begin to systematically assess the orderliness of everything you come in contact with. You know, your closet, your cabinets, your kitchen, your bills, your projects, your household...your grocery list.....your meal plans.....hmmmmm, meal plans...that's a funny thing about diets, before you know it, you have meal plans, something you never really planned or gave much thought to before. Now I have this need to think about, plan, discuss, prepare and share my meal plans...like anyone else would be interested...and if that weren't enough, I have this need to engage everyone I can in cooking with me. It's as if I have transferred the social enjoyment I once found in eating into every other aspect of my meals ---weird isn't it.

Getting Started

So I guess I should get going though admittedly, this is hard for me. Not only am I new to blogging, the combination of writing publicly about my current diet and the thought of how that sets me up for scrutiny from acquaintances and strangers alike is a terrifying place for me...but then reality struck...who's going to read it anyway? It is not that I've never been successful on a diet before, but obviously struggling with my nutrition to the point that I felt the need to blog about dieting, says it all....long term success has not been achieved! I fully understand the concepts of dieting vs. nutritional status vs. lifestyle changes vs. self control blah, blah, blah but no matter what I call it, the fact is I have not been successful long term....and there is something to turning 50 and feeling like certain personal achievements have eluded me...so here I am.





The basics....highest weight ever after years of yo-yo dieting (surprised?)...intelligent enough to manipulate myself into believing I'm in control, yet at 50 years old, when I have no one to answer to but myself...I still find "valid" reasons as to why I am still fighting my weight...and by the way, it is not that I have this judgemental attitude towards those of us with the extra pounds, it is that I DO NOT FEEL as well carrying this extra weight and have had enough success getting down to the "feel good about myself weight" on numerous occasions that I have chosen this public forum to help myself get there again.





Sooo two days ago (1/5/09) I started down the same old New Year's Resolution of losing weight....only this year, I have referred to it to my friends as "taking care of Kaye," that way, it does not seem quite so redundant (to me). I have a list of things in my head as to how "it will be different" this time, but most notably is my blog. Now at 50 I can pretend to be keeping up with technology..and the changes we mid-lifers are seeing and can't help thinking oh no, time will pass me by if I don't join in.





Back to dieting...(I did not promise not to ramble - after all, it is my therapy too), I have had 2 very stressful 1st days and have already found numerous reasons why I should not be doing this to myself (you know....eating a healthy diet....it doesn't make sense does it)...but I forge on and will keep you posted on my success! Here goes....my 1st real hurdle.....POSTING