Getting Started

So I guess I should get going though admittedly, this is hard for me. Not only am I new to blogging, the combination of writing publicly about my current diet and the thought of how that sets me up for scrutiny from acquaintances and strangers alike is a terrifying place for me...but then reality struck...who's going to read it anyway? It is not that I've never been successful on a diet before, but obviously struggling with my nutrition to the point that I felt the need to blog about dieting, says it all....long term success has not been achieved! I fully understand the concepts of dieting vs. nutritional status vs. lifestyle changes vs. self control blah, blah, blah but no matter what I call it, the fact is I have not been successful long term....and there is something to turning 50 and feeling like certain personal achievements have eluded me...so here I am.





The basics....highest weight ever after years of yo-yo dieting (surprised?)...intelligent enough to manipulate myself into believing I'm in control, yet at 50 years old, when I have no one to answer to but myself...I still find "valid" reasons as to why I am still fighting my weight...and by the way, it is not that I have this judgemental attitude towards those of us with the extra pounds, it is that I DO NOT FEEL as well carrying this extra weight and have had enough success getting down to the "feel good about myself weight" on numerous occasions that I have chosen this public forum to help myself get there again.





Sooo two days ago (1/5/09) I started down the same old New Year's Resolution of losing weight....only this year, I have referred to it to my friends as "taking care of Kaye," that way, it does not seem quite so redundant (to me). I have a list of things in my head as to how "it will be different" this time, but most notably is my blog. Now at 50 I can pretend to be keeping up with technology..and the changes we mid-lifers are seeing and can't help thinking oh no, time will pass me by if I don't join in.





Back to dieting...(I did not promise not to ramble - after all, it is my therapy too), I have had 2 very stressful 1st days and have already found numerous reasons why I should not be doing this to myself (you know....eating a healthy diet....it doesn't make sense does it)...but I forge on and will keep you posted on my success! Here goes....my 1st real hurdle.....POSTING